Answers to my past self followed by questions to my futur self

04 Jun, 2025

This post is answers to a list of questions I asked in this post. These questions became a new idea. A series of posts. I will answer to the questions I asked in the previous post and ask new ones to my future self.

It's crazy how many ideas I got from this post! Also I was able to realize how much I improved in some areas of my life, and how there wasn't that much improvements in other areas...

This turned into a big ass post. I hope that this post will maybe inspire you to do the same or that you will enjoy it!

Anyway, enjoy! :)

Answers

Q: Why am I so scared to talk about love? Am I just scared to realize that I will never know what it really is or I simply afraid that trying to investigate those kind of feelings will be too hurtful?

A: The thing is I am confused, I don't even know if being in love is really for me. Maybe I won't ever be able to feel any romantic feelings. That's not what scare me the most.

the thing is even if I won't be able to fall in love with someone, doesn't mean that there isn't people that I dearly love. I mean it might be platonic love but it doesn't mean that it isn't important to me.

It doesn't mean that I don't want to share my life with a loved one, but I am just... Confused... Clearly the hetero-normative solutions won't really work for me.

Maybe I am just thinking too hard about it and I should just do whatever I want. I will just have this discussion with that person when the moment would come.

Q: Why is it that I procrastinate like that? I always end up doing things at the very last moment. Like this post for example or paying my bills. I even procrastinate on things that I enjoy very much! Like writing letters to my friends, makes some plans to see them or going to see my family!

A: That's simply because I didn't understood myself enough. I read Atomic Habit and it's been really helpful with the procrastination problems.

I experienced too much resistance for the things that were important too me, and I was beating myself-up because of it. But I understood that I simply had to make the choice I wanted the easiest one to do.

I am not perfect at this and this could become an entire series of post! I would love to be able to talk about my progress and what I want to do next in that post! ¹

Q: Deadlines are stressful. Too stressful. I don't know if it's a good idea to put one for my own creations... Should I just create and publish it when it's more or less finished? Or do some sort of work in progress? Wait that's an interesting idea... Some Work in progress tag in some work piece?

A: That's something I should do! I shouldn't worry too much about my creations being perfect! If I wrote a post that I though was interesting but I feel like I could do it better, I would then simply post a new version!

Also now I shouldn't be afraid to create a lot of new ideas at the same time! Doing some pre-writing of dozen of post at the same time is fine! Even if I decide to not publish them, it's alright.

I simply need to take a post in my pre-written list each week and spend one hour or two making it publishable!

Once again I should make resistance as low as possible.

Q: Now that I realize it, I may have been influenced by another blog post by mei that I just read... It's like, the same concept? This post is like... a bullet point worries. Well it's not a bad thing I guess?

A: Well that is not what this post is becoming right now. Maybe mei influenced the original post but this is becoming a post series! That's crazy I never though that I could do this idea at the time.

I really hope that you will get more incredible ideas out of this series of post future me.

Q: I am happy that I achieve some of my goals this years! Like some sport related one. I makes me feel like I am not worthless.

A: That's not really a question, but I didn't knew I would actually answer to me.

At the time I've been kind of working out for more than a year. I was able to really see the results on my body and people actually complimented me! I was super happy about it :)

But lately I didn't do a lot of sport... I don't want to lose the gains I was so proud about! I also want to improve more!

Q: I think that I should just go out with my skateboard... It's been a long time since I haven't used it...

A: Meh I don't know... I don't feel like skateboarding for now. Maybe in the future? Who knows except for my future self?

Q: I want to seriously start a stamp collection. But is it really a good idea? I could make a little post series out of it! Like post something when I discover new stamps or talk about things I learned about them? That could be really cool!

A: HOLY SHIT I FORGOT ABOUT THIS!! It's true that I have a stamp collection now! Albeit a small one it is a collection I am proud about! I really want to show it one my blog.

Wouldn't it be amazing to show the different stamps and explain the story of that stamp in a post? To tell the adventures I got to live while looking for those stamps? The crafting I did in order to store those stamps?

Okay what the fuck past-me? How did you forgot about such a cool idea? ²

Q: Am I acting wrong with my friends? Am I being too annoying when I act genuine? I don't want to be troublesome or a shitty friend. I don't want them to leave me alone because of an annoying thing I said or did. If I ever did something wrong, would every friend tell me so? I wonder...

A: That's simply because you are trying to stay with friends that don't make you happy. There is some people that you simply have to let go of. Because it's there is some person that are not compatible with the person you want to become.

You'll feel like they are trying their best to pull you down. To make sure that you don't become someone different. If it happens, put some distance between you and them. It's the best thing you could do for everyone. Or else someone will hurt you, or worst, you will hurt someone.

Or maybe you should have a discussion with them. It won't be an easy discussion. In fact it will be a very hard one. You'll need a lot of courage in order to start this discussion.

But if that person really want to stay in your life, then you'll find out about it. And if it's the case, you will see that this person will make efforts to change, to improve. And if that's the case, keep that person close to your heart.

Remember though that you can't change someone else than yourself. The only person that can change a someone is themselves.

More questions

• So did you do a lot of posts about your stamp collections? TELL ME ABOUT IT!!! ³ What new stamp did you found? Do you have an idea for a collection now?
• Did you create a consistent learning habit? Did you see some improvement?
• Are you a blogger? Did you post a lot on your dreams, your struggles and how you were able to overcome them? ⁴
• Were you consistent with your sport habits? I am going to take some photos, so that you can compare my actual-self with yourself. Is there a lot of change? Are you proud of the difference?
• Are you accepted in the school I am trying to get into? Was I serious enough to offer you the knowledge and experience about cybersecurity, coding and networking? Could you do a little project to showcase that?
• Let's talk about money. What about your monetary goal? Did you wealth improved? Did you found a way to calculate it? Did you finally made that budget I were supposed to do months ago? And if you did, did you started to think about a way to make more money?
• Did you create more Vlogs? Did you do more funny things? Did you create memories of times that could not be lived again? When you watch those old videos, are you happy that you are able to see those memory again? I hope so.
• What did you eat for dinner?
• Did you find some kind of balance? Did you create a wheel to see which aspect of your life is lacking currently? How did you divide this wheel? Are you happy with that wheel?
• When was the last time you meet a new person?
• Are you self-reliant or are you dependent of someone? Can you drive? Do you have a car? Did you learn emergency medical? If something where to happened and nobody would help you, could you survive? Could you make your loved ones survive?
• Are you happy?

There we have it! Now I need to wait for my future self to answer. I wonder what the answers would be. Maybe you the reader could find out right now? Maybe you could read the answer without waiting?

It was a great experience to see the questions from my past self. To see what was in my little mind at the time. To be able to think about ideas I completely forgot about.

So I did this gift for myself, to be able to experience it again in a few weeks.

Thank you for reading this post. See ya for the next one.

While wondering about the future - Muliama