I'll be present
I haven't been super present recently.
I ghosted my friends, I avoided my family, I tried to forget about my existence. Ignoring by body, ignoring my mind. Pushing myself well above my limits, in a bad way. I over-plan each and everyday, packing as much as possible, trying to "catch up" everything. I also deprived myself of my hobbies, of my creative outlets. No more journaling, no more blogging, singing, drawing or anything else.
And I never caught up. The situation just became worst. I just became a worst person overall. It's now more painful to be myself.
I just became someone I hate, never there for anyone he likes. Not even there for himself.
But from now on I'll change. I want to be there for those who really matter for me. I don't want to work all day and forget about them. But most importantly, I want to be there for myself.
It won't be easy. I'll have to work toward that goal slowly. But I'll put in the efforts everyday. And I'll start by piking up my most important hobby.
Let's get back to blogging.
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