I should try more
Am I going insane? Again?
It's been more than 2 weeks since I wasn't able to sustain a proper schedule. I've been sick for more than a week now, is it because of the seasonal change?
Time goes by, I am already 19 years old but I don't feel like I am making any progress since the end of high school. When I was younger I thought that it was the fact that I lived with my parents that stopped me from making progress.
The fact that they didn't want me to do something or the fact that it took me more than 3 hours a day to commute to school made me think that it was the only problem in my life. I believed that the exact second where these problems would disappear, everything would be alright.
But now that I live literately next to my school and that I am alone in my apartment, I realize that it's not my main problem. Even 6 months after this change, nothing really changed. I still have trouble getting stuff done, I don't feel like I've made a lot of progress.
These past 2 weeks were the worst. I didn't take the time to actually post something. I feel like the blog didn't matter that much. I don't even know if someone is going to read my post, I am just rambling at that point.
I didn't launch myself in anything that was really meaningful to me. Not a single project, not a single long post, not even an illustration. I didn't do enough of that since I got my apartment.
I think that there is something I've figured out.
I am scared to try.
That's what blocked my progress in art, but also in everything else. If there is a cool idea that I have, I don't even bother to think about how I could do it.
But that's when I try an odd idea that I get the most effective results! That's when I wrote the post about school and crush culture that I got reactions from others. This post sparked amazing conversations. I want more things like that!
So yeah, that means I have to try out more of those odd ideas of mine. Some of them would certainly not help. But I would certainly have fun along the way, and it gives me more opportunities to help others.
So I'll try more and share it on this part of the internet.