Not sure of what to be
I want to be a writer, a scientist, an artist. I want to be a musician, a great friend and a student. I want to learn Spanish, German and Portuguese.
I want to be everything, I want to learn everything.
That's why I've been keeping a lot of my options open. I've never did anything that could prevent me from becoming something in the future. Because I wanted to let myself chance to be anything that I wanted to be. But that meant that I ended up becoming nothing at all.
Everything that I am now isn't my choice at all. I've just followed the flow. I've let the world to decide what I am. I'm nothing that I wanted to be.
I haven't committed to any path. Current and weather are the only responsible for anything in my life. Others choices are the only thing that made me myself.
The many options that I have to choose from are paralyzing me. I'm a prisoner of my own freedom. Since I could try be anything at anytime, I don't know what to choose. I'm scared to make the wrong choice.
But being nothing is worst than making the wrong choice.
I've recently learned that there is no good choices. What makes a choice a good one is me. The fact that I choose one direction, one possibility. Because I've cut off every other options.
So I'll make a good choice now. I'll just become someone who tell stories. Someone anyone can learn from. Someone anyone would want to teach to.
I want to do only one thing. To tell stories that can change a life. To write words that can help to live a better life.