The Same As Yours
I often lose my shit when I get anxious.
But sometimes, it feels like I'm not seeing the same world as usual. Like I am losing touch with reality. I'm not seeing things normally when it happen.
It feels like the whole world is a threat to me. I see anger where there is none. I see strange beings appear before my eyes. I hear sobbing from things that shouldn't even complain. Those oddities make me feel like I shouldn't exist.
When I let myself being submerged by everything that happen in my life I get anxious. Anxious enough for all of this to happen. That's when all of my problems are suffocating me. That's when I want to disappear.
But one thing I know is that I have to fight it all. I am ready to swim in this ocean of fears and strangeness. I am ready to face all of those oddities and those trauma. If it means that I can stay in the same world as yours.
Because I love you.
Thank you for reading - Muliama